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Night Two.

My mind is racing. I don't know what to do. I'm again in this state.


It's not what I want. No, if I could have my way, I would not be here. I know exactly where I would go if I could.

And that's the funny thing about what I'm feeling. I know what I want. Just a chance. To see what this is. I want to feel what I'm feeling. I've never found so much joy in my fear. I've never smiled with these tears in my eyes.

I've never held a gaze so long, just to stay in the moment.

I've been searching for myself for a long time now. I think I've found him. At least as much of him as there is to be found for now. I know I'm capable. I care for others and it's returned. I love who I am. Getting to know myself has been wonderful.

I'm sure I'll change. Everything changes, but I hope to improve myself. Desperately. I can be better. I can be stronger. I can be more kind. All I have to do is try. I really do think it's that simple.

But …


Considering the state of affairs with the surveillance state and the infringements on the freedoms of ourselves and our fellow human beings all over the world, perhaps it is our responsibility to wage a war in the name of our freedoms, upon the powers that would infringe upon them.
When we think about the people that we love, we must consider how we would want the rest of the world to treat them. We would not want them to be belligerent to them. We would not want them to force them to fit in. We would want them to respect their privacy.
Why then, do we allow organizations to exist that encroach upon them?
Think about the oppressed people around the world. Think about the oppressive governments they are forced to live under. Think about the people who cannot legally express themselves as they are, who cannot legally say, "It is not for you to judge this part of my life, I can tell you that I am doing nothing wrong to you, and you cannot argue with it. You cannot tell me it is wrong f…


It must have been worth it.
The fall.
To feel free. To fly. To achieve the impossible.

He ignored the warnings.
As did I.
But the impact will be worth the journey.

When I look into your eyes, I know hubris.
I feel awe.
The beauty of those suns, the heat they pour into my soul, is irresistible.

To hold you close, to make you smile.
It's ecstasy.
The gods themselves must look upon our embrace with envy.

The descent is horrifying.
I'm scared.
And the sea below looks anything but inviting.

But I am prepared.
I'm ready.
I have felt the wind across my cheeks, and your warmth on my face.

Nothing will change what we shared.
It's real.
This transient flight is worth all the hurt gravity has prepared for me.

So as these last feathers melt away,
I smile.
Ready to crash into the waves of agony for daring to soar with you.